Tuesday, July 6, 2010

July. . .

So i've been tols that to get rid of these over anxious feelings i have to completely re-train my brain. See i'm so used to being in situations where i feel there is a threat or need to feel anxious (when there really isn't) thats it's like automatic to me to think and feel a certain way.
I.E: Place + Supposed 'threat' ---> Certain thoughts and feelings of anxiety.
So i have to re-train my brain so that instead it's:
Place + Positive thoughts ---> No 'threat' of feelings of anxiety.
Basically this means putting myself in a lot of 'anxiety provoking' situations and dealing with them by staying put and using positive thoughts.
See this is going to take a lot of practice and re-enforcing, which means a lot of anxious situations which will be a very hard thing to do.
But theres a catch. . . It's going to take a lot of time and effort and not giving up and there is going to be a lot of hard work to be done with little to no visible results shown for a long time.
For me this is definately going to be a problem because last time i kept giving up because i wasn't seeing any results but now i have to keep trying even when i don't feel any different.
Basically a lot of hard work for a long time with no visible results for a long time. . .
This is gunna take a lot of patience. . .

Peace and Love
Robyn

Friday, May 28, 2010

From now on just me .. . . . .

The feeling of being trapped is horrible. not being able to go out with friends or family, stuck at home all day. and i've gotten to an age where i really wanna go out ya know. i'm so jealous of all my friends, the things they can do without even thinking about it.....
I get so fed up and so mad at them over it but they don't seem to notice
I'm afraid of being forgotten too. Like friends of mine have met other friends of mine through me and now i just feel like they're gunna forget the middle person....
Like they just forget about me completely and then wonder why i'm angry at them.
I mean who wants to hang out with me if they always have to come up and see me all the time. . . Its only a matter of time before they stop talking to me like my old friends did....
They didn't know what was wrong with me (neither did i at the time) and after a while they stopped texting and that was it, i tried to keep communicating but they obviously didn't...
That was hard.. Now i've new friends, a new school and i'm starting to wonder how long will it be before they stop texting and calling too. . . . .

Peace and Love
Robyn

Monday, February 15, 2010

My Anxiety..........

Ok so in my case Anxiety comes in many forms. Which are classified into these catagories:

Social Anxiety: Is when you feel like you are going to be judged in a bad way by others even though you have no reason to feel that way. It's mostly anticipation. Like you THINK you're going to be judged by other people when in fact when you're in the situation you'll find it was all in your head. Social Anxiety is normal when its shyness or something like that but if its leading you to avoid social situations then it must be confronted.


Seperation Anxiety Disorder: is when you feel a lot of feelings of anxiety when you are away from somewhere you feel safe, for example at home, of from someone you feel safe with, for example your mam or dad. Feeling like this are being afraid to stay home alone or with someone you don't feel safe with even though they could be part of your family, or worrying that you wont be able to be around that person, or worrying that something is going to happen to that person if you are not around them. Seperation Anxiety is normal for little kids and stuff but when it starts to affect your everyday life then it needs to be dealt with.

Agoraphobia: is an anxiety disorder that develops as a complication of panic attacks, or it may arise from the fear of having a panic attack in a place where there is no easy way of escaping or where they feel like they have no control, or social anxiety problems may be an underlying cause. People with Agoraphobia tend to avoid public and unfamiliar places especially large open spaces like shopping centers and airports because they don't feel safe and 'there is nowhere to hide'. In really bad cases the person would remain at home and have great difficulty leaving this 'safe place'. Agoraphobia usually happens after people experience a number of panic attacks because they fear another panic attack is going to happen, ofen going to extreme lengths to avoid these situations.

Panic attacks: can last from as short as 15 seconds to about 30 minutes. Panic attacks happen when you feel nothing but fear and it takes over your whole body leading to shaking, sweating, feeling sick or numb, feeling like your chest is tight or you can't breathe, or you feel dizzy or start hyperventilating. Not all of these feelings are experianced it depends on the person. But know these are just feelings and nothing more and should disappear once you start to relax by doing, for example deep breathing or distracting yourself. But if you experience a lot of panic attacks that alter how you live your life you should get some advice on how to get it sorted.

The most common forms of treatments are:

Prolonged exposure: which is when you keep going to the place or doing the thing that causes you anxiety until you don't feel it anymore.

Support groups: which is where a group of people get together to face the problems that cause them anxiety.

Therapy: which is attanding a psychologist. The most common form of treatment here is C.B.T which is Cognitive behavioral therapy. This is found to be very effective.

I would not UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES recommend anti-depressants or anti-anxiety drugs as most of the time they don't work and the side effects are someimes worse than the actual symptoms!

I would however recommend Homeopathy as a form of treatment. It offers natural remedies with no known side effects that help to restore your internal balance and lessen the feelings of anxiety. I am taking it at the moment and I find everyday life a lot easier now that I am taking it. It is something to think about as a form of treatment in association with a psychologist. However some people who practise Homeopathy also offer psychological treatment along side their remedies like in my case.

Peace and Love
Robyn

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In depth.......

Anxiety is described as a feeling associated with uneasiness, stress, fear or worry. The most common feeling I ever heard of is the 'lump in your throat' feeling. This Anxiety is normal because it passes after a while and everyone gets it once in a while. I mean everyone needs a little Anxiety in life for different situations its when it gets bad enough to affect you're everyday life that you should get it looked into.
People develop Anxiety due to either too much stressful situations all at once or as i recently learned it can be passed down, like if you mam or dad or older family member has it, It can increase your chance of developing it in later life. It sucks I know! The fact that there is a chance you could get it just coz someone in your family has/had it.
But that doesn't mean you can't get it sorted.
Peace and Love
Robyn

Ok now getting personal.....

Ok so hopefully this is what my posts are going to be like from now on. Personal.

Ok so I was first diagnosed with Anxiety about 4 years ago and since then lifes been pretty tough. Things I know my friends wouldn't even put a second thought in, I find really hard. For example going to school or shopping or just hanging out with my friends. And when I do i either can barely concentrate on what they are saying or just want to find the quickest way out of there. Which is not a great way to live I can tell you!!
If I'm in a situation I don't feel comfortable in I feel all panicky, shaky and I feel like I can't breathe. Its a horrible feeling but all I can do is try and remind myself that they are just feelings and can't actually hurt me. It is still very frightening though.
It's also very frustrating. Watching your friend doing things you feel like you can't do and getting upset because they're doing it as naturally as breathing, while you're stuck at home feeling like the world is going by around you. But this post is to prove you're not alone!
Like you me and hundreds of others suffer from Teenage Anxiety. Maybe not exactly the same as my situation but all I post is what I know and experience so I'm here sharing it with you so you know.
Peace and Love
Robyn